The Birth Story

When I got my epidural with Cohen it was a great experience, a little pinch and two seconds later they were done. My spinal with Jade was just the beginning of things not going so well. He couldn't find the space and it took a lot of poking and pinching to the point where I was crying by the time he was done. He told me he put some duramorph into the spinal to help with pain control for the next 24 hours. After the spinal and duramorph were in I immediately began to feel very nauseous. I began throwing up the nothing I had eaten in the last 12 hours and feeling very out of control. I kept squirming and saying I feel awful and throwing up. Then they let Will in and the surgery began. The baby was stuck, they even tried the vacuum, and then she cut bigger to make room to get her out. They got her out, showed her to me for a brief second where I got to see all her hair. That was my first impression. She looked big, but not that big, but I was really excited about all her hair.

Then I went to "recovery" where I continued to throw-up for the next three hours and not see my baby. Jade was down in the nursery with Will. Her blood sugar was low so Will gave her a bottle and I didn't get to see her until 11:00. Will came up around 9 or 10 and showed me pictures on the camera he took of her while we waited. I started to cry and say she looked like a sumo wrestler. I felt very detached from her since I hadn't held her yet. Finally they brought her up at 11:00 and I got to hold her for a little bit until they whisked me away into x-ray. The doctor came in and told me strait up that she thought she nicked my ureter. So I spent the next three hours in x-ray, rolling on my stomach, and getting maneuvered all over the place while they tried to make the contrast move through my dialated ureter. My ureter was already dialated from the baby sitting on it for the past nine months (which I guess is normal and will fix itself) so it made it hard to see if the contrast was making it all the way through without leaking. I was still throwing up in x-ray. And I was holding the bag so I couldn't hold my incision. All not very fun. The good news was that they concluded my ureter was intact.

Then I made it back to my room where I got to hold Jade and continue to throw up bile until night time. I really didn't feel like myself that whole day. It was very frustrating. Then night came and the nausea stopped. Jade slept from 11-4 the first night and 10-4 the second night. I stopped throwing up but then they didn't let me eat for 2 days because I wasn't passing gas, lame. How are you supposed to walk four times a day, nurse like crazy, and heal with no food!! Finally on the third morning I pulled out the tears and they let me eat. Needless to say I passed gas 2 hours later. So that's pretty much my experience. Not what I was expecting.

And most recently my feet have been swollen the past two days? Does the worrying ever end? I forget how much responsibility and pressure you feel as a mom with a new baby. All these intense feelings, am I going to be OK, am I going to be able to have more children? How can I take care of three kids in pain and with no hubby? Well, I think the hormones are starting to subside a little today. I am starting to feel better and get my pain under control. Jade is such a sweet baby. I am trying to focus on that before I blink and she is 2! It melts my heart when I see the boys hold her and kiss her and love her. And there is nothing sweeter than seeing daddy and his little girl taking a nap together.

And the nursing.... well that's a whole new story... oh the pain:) No, really I am feeling better and in control. I can do this! My little sister has two babies, come on, I can handle one right!